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Am I just unfazed or am I just dumb
(Feel the start if the spiraling)
When I feel at all I just seem so numb
(Thoughts of relapse so frightening)
So I wast my time by doing nothing
Cause something is far too much
And I'm not quite living
Just existing
So how do I put out
These daunting flames surrounding me
Stupid brain
You fucked me over yet again today
Focus gone and I can't seem to replace
Did I lose or did I just misplace
My minds a train
I lost the tracks
Now I
Feel myself start to derail
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41
02:29
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This heavy chest is suffocating me
And I anguish searching for release
I clench my fist but can't seem to escape the disbelief
And maybe if I take a little drive
Raise my hands and then just close my eyes
I'll take away the burden that I am to all inside
(Wear your brave face
Wear your brave face)
I really don't think I can fake it today, no
I really don't think I can fake it today, no
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3. |
Complacency Pt. 1
06:04
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So I'll lay here
This twin size grave
Shades of light beige
Colored Grey
Rising tides don't threaten me
If I'm flailing save yourself
What's left to give
I've drained it all
Run out the clock
Ignore the call
Where I should be
So far away
This place ain't safe
But what's worth the chase
Where have I gone
Who's this now
Gold heart gilded empty cage
Yearn for small crumbs of your care
Worth the cruel words and despair
I guess I just miss your touch
Even though you bruise
So kick the crutch
Make me crawl
I deserve your truth
Let it ruin you as the hell burns its way through
Our home's an empty room
These moving boxes killing me
So this is what I get
For sharing all my vulnerabilities
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Sister Hellen
04:00
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Break up
Break down
Cycle again and
Break up
Break down
Cycle on through the pain
Destruct destroy
Halt the progression
Destruct destroy
Bathe in your new depression
I'm twenty five
I'm burning out and running empty on bliss
Laughing at the thought of two more quarters of this
My dad keeps hounding me that I should go to school for a trade
While my mother views my failures as just flaws in my brain
Time to open up these wounds with this new group therapy
It's quite expensive quite intensive going four days a week
Changing hurts and I hate pain so maybe this ain't for me
This hell's so cozy, so damn cozy, so damn cozy
Fuck!
Here we go
Back through the motions
Fear the low
Lowest emotions
Cut me out
Cut me out from you
Disregard all that we went through
Here we go
Back through the motions
Feel the low
Lowest emotions
This is what the damage can do
This is what the damage can do
Now every single insecurity
It gets the best of me and blinds all that I see
Now every time I see the city lights
I think of all the fights and harming out of spite
And every single drive down 95
I feel so damn alive without you by my side
Thief you stole a real big part of me
A real big part of me
A real big part of me
Is life just entropy
Is this what's left for me
Well I can find my way
Just take it day by day
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Aurora
03:51
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Shedding skin so bruised and scarred
The pain is fierce I guess this is how I'll get far
And as the leaves fall to the the ground
The end of warm nights show me what I haven't found
But it's still there
Deep inside a hollowed heart
Dreams of past late at night
Tear apart
Dance with me
In the trees
Laugh and cry
Memories
This dance just cannot last
I have to let you know
These ties bound to our past
I have to let them go
I don't care if I'm not enough
For all but me and I won't let you call my bluff
The good the bad from what was had
I'm gracious for but it's time that I don't look back
It will be there
Deep inside
A better heart
I'll still repair
And I might cry
But that's just fine
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Complacency Pt. 2
05:39
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I've felt your pain
So scared and drained
Now when you look into the mirror
Scars you have are growing clearer
Much clearer
That chip off your should is growing much colder
But I've got my jacket and can't hear your racket no longer
No longer
Let's ride through the changes as life rearranges
From days spent in your bed giving into the dread
It's okay to be low
Complacency is hard to curb
But I can speed and still not swerve
I've put a lot of work in me
As well as in my Lancer GT
Depression intensive reflection extensive
So how do you rise up when boot straps don't pull up
You just can't
You just can't
Tomato tomato
La Villa Strangiato
I'll see you tomorrow
Don't fill me with sorrow
I just can't
Can't bear it
(Move on)
I'm not okay but I'm just fine
I think I'll get there with some time
If I'm complacent how have I moved on through
Cause I'd rather die than put up with your abuse
I don't care where the hell I'm going
As long as I'm moving on
And if you see me in the future
Just smile and nod
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Emo/Post Hardcore trio from Philadelphia, PA consisting of Reilly James on guitar/lead vocals, Misha Datskovsky on drums/unclean vocals , and Addison Rider on bass/vocals
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